The Inside of my Head

Huh, will you look at that. It's been well over a year since I posted anything here. I kinda forgot I even had this account. Oh well...

I'm still around, still writing, and still wondering why I hang around the furry fandom. I'm not exactly the type you'd think would get invovled in anything like that. I'm a disturbingly 'normal' example of the male of the human species. I mean, RL has an unbreakable hold on me. I work long hours as a mechanic, I have an old house that I'm in the process of renovating. I have an old car in the garage that I've heavily modified for drag racing use, I have a dog, I have a bunch of RL friends that I hang out and have fun with and I'm lucky if I can get on my computer more than a three or four times a week to squeeze in some writing time and see what's been happening in the online world. I don't fursuit, I don't yiff, I don't RP and I've never really felt like I belong in the fandom.

I've come to realize over the last few years that I'm not really much of a fur.

That being said, I've always had a connection with canines in general and wolves in particular. Maybe that's why I have some small interest in furry. Maybe it's the stories I've read and the stories I'm writing that keep me hanging around the fringes of the fandom. I'm a quiet guy as it is, a thoughtful introvert that tends to observe more than participate. There are only a few people that I keep in contact with online. Sometimes I wish I did participate more, but it's tough for me to take the first steps to do it. Time, as always, is a factor in that respect but so is my rather quiet manner. I tend to wait for other people to make the first move...

Y'know, I probably wouldn't still be hanging around here if I hadn't been inspired to start writing five long years ago. I still find that hard to believe. Me, an author of furry fiction? Seems crazy when I think about it. Yet hear I am, five years later with three novels in progress that have actually become fairly popular among a small group of people. That I wrote something that someone else actually read and liked has been one of the biggest surprises of my life to date...

Enough introspective rambling. I'm gonna go walk down to the 7/11 and get a cup of coffee.

Current Music: thoughtful silence...